Monday, November 14, 2011

Hold Your Head High Gorgeous, They Would Kill To See You Fall

Girls: They can be so awful to each other it is ridiculous.  I hate admitting that I used to be one of THOSE girls.  You know the ones I'm talking about.  The ones that cause drama, gossip about others, put others down for ridiculous things...yes, a shady mean girl. 

Times have changed and so have I.  I no longer find pleasure in putting others down, making fun of people, sharing rumors I have heard about others.  Instead, I look at girls that still have yet to grow up and feel bad for them.  The happiest I have been in my life is right now.  This very moment.  It has taken awhile for me to be able to brush off the rude things people have to say about me.  I finally realize that in all reality, the people that talk badly about other people are only defining who they are as a person.  Character comes from how you define yourself...ex) what you say about others, how you react in situations, and even just your actions in themselves.  If people listen to what others have to say about you and use that to define who you are, then they are not mature enough to realize that even the most amazing people in the world have had negative things said about them.  It is time to rise above the bullshit and grow up.  Time to realize that we are all human beings and we all make mistakes.  Our mistakes do not define who we are as people, what we do after we make the mistakes does. 

It simply amazes me that I really used to be one of those girls.  I am so glad that I find joy in making others happy and not focusing on how rude people can be.  What they don't realize is that the more they speak my name and talk badly about me, the more motivated I am to prove them, and everyone wrong.  I believe in myself, and although there is always room for improvement, I'm beginning to love who I am now and that is enough for me :)

Monday, November 7, 2011

Don't Let Situations You Can't Change, Change You

Too many times, people let bad things that happen in their lives define them.  A lot of how people perceive who you are is through the way you act in certain situations.  In the past I have had the habit of "freaking out" at silly rumors, or things people would say.  I've found that taking everything life throws at you with a smile makes all the difference.  I no longer let little things get to me as much as they used to.  Life is too short to let a bad situation make me miserable.  There is good in all the bad, it just depends on how you look at it :)


Yesterday at Church the pastor spoke about serving God.  He stated that many of us do not fully serve God, but we serve ourselves.  We do things to gain for ourselves, even if those things are what we know are sins.  A lot of things ran through my head as he was speaking about this subject.  It was like he was speaking to me, saying that I needed to change some of my ways to serve God instead of myself.  I know that no one is perfect and I will probably never be able to fully give God everything I want, but the least I can do is try.  The biggest problem I have is cursing.  I know God is never proud when he hears me curse and I feel like this is step one to becoming a better person.  So I am going to do this, even though if any of my friends read this they are laughing at me right now, but I will!


Life is going rather smoothly lately.  A couple bumps, here and there, but overall I am very happy.  This weekend was amazing with wonderful people.  I had a great Saturday night with some new and old friends.  I've made amends with some, and others I have realized how amazing life is without them.  I have surrounded myself with very positive people that never make me feel badly about anyone, or anything at all.  They are constantly lifting me higher.  Once again, I feel like I have the whole world at my fingertips.  Things are starting to go my way.  I wish everyone could feel what I feel.  I wish I could share this joy and happiness with the world.  All the lessons I have learned have made me who I am and I am so proud of how much I have grown.  I may not be the person I wish to be, but I'm not the person I was :) SO BLESSED!!!