This week has been CRAZY! Being sick has certainly kept me from running my tush around town trying to get things done, but I'm still on top of it. I have opened my eyes recently to a lot of things. My last blog, for instance, really showed me how much bottled up emotions I have toward the past. It is time to let go; of it all. It is never easy letting go of things you have grown attached to, especially when they are still there, trying to be apart of you in some way, shape or form. What I realized is that it isn't the way that I want it there and it never will be. This is my life and I make the rules. If I don't want someone in my life then that is my choice. Is it easy? Never, but no one promised that life was going to be easy. I know when all is said and done, it will be okay. I WILL BE OKAY. And it just takes me truly believing that to be able to move forward and work on MY life and not worry about others.
Today is a fantastic day. Although I slept through my only class for the day it is still wonderful. I am awake, healthy, and in a wonderful mood. I have so much going for me. I have a wonderful family that has placed an amazing roof over my head and food on the table. I have the best friends a girl could ask for that are always there for me when I need them, and even when I don't. I am healthy as a horse and have so much life ahead of me. Today's goal: Appreciate those around me and God that gave them to me. Life is too short to not be thankful EVERY DAY.
I'm not sure what the future has in store for this girl. All I know is that I am working hard toward my goal of graduating in May. I am hitting the deadlines and proving to myself that I can do it. I don't worry about meeting anyone or needing someone. That girl isn't me. I am perfectly happy alone...just because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm lonely :) Too many people, including me in the past, worry about being in love. I can't lie, it is the best feeling in the world, but I know God has something amazing in store for me in this life and when the time is right I will be ready! My future is a mystery, but as long as I keep growing, maturing, and shaping myself to be the woman I want to be...I know I will come out on top! This girl will never settle for anything less than being HAPPY.
